Dean squeezes Castiel's hands when he realizes he's done, heart beating fast in his chest. Castiel is rarely coy, and none of the things he's said haven't been blurted in some form or another at least once over the years, but this might be the first time Dean has let himself fully believe them.
He might not be fully good, but he can't doubt that Castiel believes he is, or that the faith Cas has in him doesn't make him feel closer to worthy every day. "When we met," he says at length, "I didn't know who I was anymore. I'd forgotten what I wanted, why I wanted it, what it meant to be good. You pulled me out of Hell, and for a long time I thought that was the end of it. But the truth is, you've been leading me a little further out of Hell every day."
Dean swallows. "You turned away from everything you were supposed to do and be, and you never gave up on me, not even when I did over and over. You're the bravest, craziest, most stubborn being I've ever known, and sometimes I still can't believe that you love me. Sometimes I still can't believe that I get to love you back, but I do."
He smiles, voice so thick that he's not sure anyone besides Cas can even hear it anymore, but Cas is the only one he needs. "I don't need proof that you're gonna stick around, or that I'm gonna be by your side as long as I'm still kicking, but I'm happy to take it anyway."
Dean draws a breath, grin going lopsided as he looks to Cas and the crowd and back again. "Is that it? Are we hitched?"
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Date: 2014-10-03 08:54 pm (UTC)He might not be fully good, but he can't doubt that Castiel believes he is, or that the faith Cas has in him doesn't make him feel closer to worthy every day. "When we met," he says at length, "I didn't know who I was anymore. I'd forgotten what I wanted, why I wanted it, what it meant to be good. You pulled me out of Hell, and for a long time I thought that was the end of it. But the truth is, you've been leading me a little further out of Hell every day."
Dean swallows. "You turned away from everything you were supposed to do and be, and you never gave up on me, not even when I did over and over. You're the bravest, craziest, most stubborn being I've ever known, and sometimes I still can't believe that you love me. Sometimes I still can't believe that I get to love you back, but I do."
He smiles, voice so thick that he's not sure anyone besides Cas can even hear it anymore, but Cas is the only one he needs. "I don't need proof that you're gonna stick around, or that I'm gonna be by your side as long as I'm still kicking, but I'm happy to take it anyway."
Dean draws a breath, grin going lopsided as he looks to Cas and the crowd and back again. "Is that it? Are we hitched?"