"There are only two places to spend eternity that are available to us, one of them is unacceptable and Heaven is not actually all that peaceful regardless of the fact that it would not let me back in," he sighs. Robin has seen the tape, he knows why.

"It is terrifying, I think about it all the time and please, do tell Ishiah this although I know that he knows. I have no interest at all living on after Dean and I am more sorry than I can say that you can empathize."