I think I've been to more parties and weddings the last couple of months than I have my whole life. Is there anyone in this damn place you don't know?" Humor, the last refuge of a guy who's been silently freaking out the last hour or so. Maybe because I remember doing something like this, back then, back in his life and it still fucking hurts way more than I want it to. I mean, I know I said I'd forget her, but I didn't forget-forget her and that... I don't know how to deal with those feelings.

Especially not when I'm with her. With some one who makes me as happy as I was then, when we were... a family.